We laughed, we chatted, we cried, we had really bad coffee and we sat on our butts for around 10 hours... it was a really long trip, and would have been longer, but I drove!

At 4:30pm we arrived in Charters Towers, unannounced, as we knew mum and dad would have told us not to worry about coming up. We walked through the front gate as dad came around the side of the house... we all sobbed... a moment I will never forget. I was so glad to be there.

We walked inside (after I battled with the sliding security door!) and there was MY mum, lying on her blue leather recliner, just so, so sick and weak... I cried. I was so happy to be there, so happy to see her, but so sad to see her so sick.

That evening, mum walked us around the garden, no, not a pretty secret garden type garden, but a weirdly shaped hexagonal type, with weeds, red dirt and lots of dry and dying plants....ewww! She wanted to show off her new place.

She walked us around the house, approximately 20 metres, she struggled...severely, I was so scared.

The next day (and week) we sat with her, lay down on her bed with her, cried, got her water, watched telly, did anything we could to make her feel better or more comfortable. I loved just being there with her... such valuable time spent together.

The next evening we went up to Charters Towers lookout. I knew mum loved going there, with Mollly (the dog) to feed the wallabies (that we found out later we weren't supposed to feed) I look back now and think how tired and exhausted she must have been, but she went anyway...

Feeding the wallabies apple...they don't like carrot or bread!

Check out my mum and me... She's hot!

So it's been awhile since I blogged...

I went on a secret squirrel mission 7 weeks ago to surprise my sister in Mundubberra!! The plan was to stay for a week then go home to Ballina. Good plan!

THEN, Saturday the 10th July 2010 came around... it will now be a date in my life that is very significant for me and my family. We knew mum was sick and that she was going for tests... we thought it was just mum being sick, the normal usual sick, but no, we were wrong, so very wrong.

That afternoon we got a phone call, about 3 o'clock - a call I never thought I would EVER have to deal with or face...but no, again, I was wrong. It was my mum calling us to tell us she had cancer. Errr that yucky word... Dad was unable to talk.... I was gutted.

That afternoon mum called each of her kids to tell us. As soon as my sister Clare found out, she travelled out to Mundubberra, a 5 hour trip...

The next morning, I got up at 3 am, woken by a dream - I started praying and journalling, I updated my Facebook status to 'writing down the vision' mum commented on it at that time, telling me, she was also up doing the same...how precious. At 6am Kirsty, Clare and myself travelled over 1000km's to Charters Towers

You can not imagine the absolute shock, devastation, sadness, anger, hurt and fear that I felt after that phone call...

More of the journey of the last few weeks to come.... stay tuned...

Welcome to my Morning, it is glorious!

The house is empty....

There's a coffee machine on the bench....

There is soy milk in the fridge....

A fresh bag of coffee has been opened up....

THIS morning is glorious!

I'm having a latte with Jesus this morning!

Life is Sweet!!

Hello fellow bloggers!



Well, I am trying to pick up my act in the whole blogging department...I don't know how to work many of the contraptions on this site...which makes me struggle a whole lot!



I am over my emo time...life isn't perfect, and never will be, but life is a journey!!



Life this week has slowly getting better! The last week and the next week has and is massive for me I had my work Christmas party last night - good times! Youth Christmas party tonight - fun times, Swan Lake up in Brissy tomorrow with my sister, sister in law and lovely cousins!! I have Youth leaders christmas Party on Sunday, HSIE department Xmas party and have had 2 xmas parties previously! So busy, busy busy! I am also trying to fit in gym time...life is full and hectic!!



Another thing!! My family is comin ghome for Christmas - minus Danny and Adele...but they will be up a few days after, but I am totally excited!! Can't wait to have everyone back and get a new family photo...I looked so icky in the last one!!!



There's my life this week!! Catch ya next time!



xxx

I've been away for a while now...this is a bit emo....

Hey!

So I am sitting here at 10:30 at night listening to Brooke Fraser's song 'Shadowfeet'. It's currently on my MySpace profile - check it out www.myspace.com/beautiful_aj - I love this song!

I am feeling a little emo at the moment! I feel like things around me are in chaos, that things for other people are happening for everyone BUT me - I am still at home (a boomerang child at that!) AND feeling like I can not handle things anymore!
But then as I think over my life, I feel so, so blessed! I have the two most amazing and loving parents on the planet, a job I completly love, a church that is just the best, and a God who is so faithful to the dreams and desires locked in my heart! I think about the chaos around me and know that there will be a calm in the midst of the storm soon, I know there is a man out there who God has entrusted to me and who God has devoted fully to me - handpicked! And I know that when I feel I can't do it anymore - that God doesn't give me anything I can't handle!! God is so much bigger then all of this!

Thats me!

xxx

Another catch up!

Hello peeps!

So, just thought I'd check in and say hi!
I am currently on holidays which have included activities such as, Lennox to Ballina walk, step classes, spin classes, bodypump, internet surfing, internet ...(will let those of you who need to know - know!)
Tomorrow I am going up with my friend Annaliese for a few days to the Sunshine Coast, staying 2 nights and going to the C3 Regional Pastors day at C3 Kawana Waters on Thursday. We will be doing some fun things and will post some pics on my Facebook when I return... I feel like I need to get away, I enjoy getting away from Ballina and having a break. So some good times are ahead.
Tonight I have a Youth leaders meeting, will be good - always fun, interesting and challenging all at the same time.
Hope you are all well, and thanks for reading my blog!

This is for you Danny!

Hi Danny!

How are you big brother? FOr those reading this blog, Daniel has been, phoning me, IMing me and doing anything possible to get me to update this blog... he is a funny man!

I have done and changed ALOT in my life since my last blog - driven, lost weight, been on holidays, and laughed a whole lot more!

Will fill you in more when I have time!

xxx